sym·pho·ny : harmony of sounds.

Having had a mid 'mid-life crisis' has made me take a second look at what I want to do with my life.

I don't think social work is what I want to do.

Having spent the past year and a half learning about almost everything there is to know about social work, I'm feeling a bit lost. Well a lot lost...but in a good way. I think. Realizing what you thought you've wanted to do for the rest of your life for the past 3 years wasn't right is a frightening moment. But I also think I've realized what it is that I'm really supposed to be doing and what I've really always wanted to do, I just never realized it.

I absolutely love to write.

So of course the first thing to do is start a blog (duh) and get comfortable again with writing and getting feedback from those reading it to see if this is an entertainable thought or I'm really just a shitty writer. Whether I'm shitty or not it's something that I love to do and it is definitely my symphony. Isn't that all that really matters?

I'm glad I finally realized it.

So as much as I want feedback and constructive criticism and all that other crap, I guess if I love to write it doesn't really  matter what you think does it? (Although when I think about my livelihood for the next 40 years, I guess you do get a bit of a say in the matter.)

But this blog isn't just for me, it's also for you.

I love social work because I love helping others. All my life all I really ever wanted to do was to make others happy and help in any way I could. Although I don't think I'm strong enough emotionally to be a social worker for the next million years, I still want to help and make others feel as great as possible. I'm writing this blog mainly to work on myself, but I also hope that even just one little thing that's said will make you think, make you take a look at yourself and your life and figure out what it is that really is

your symphony.